I currently have a Dragon Age: Origin PT going, a Mass Effect 3 PT stuck midway, a Dragon Age II PT that I have left unfinished for far too long, and I just got sucked back into TERA Online. I just need to … finish SOMETHING. I keep starting things and I just can’t seem to get anywhere. Though I am committed to finish my Amell PT at least in DA:O.
Filing under: things I keep doing to distract myself because life isn’t so kind and every day has felt like a struggle.
I am also still frequently playing Resident Evil 6 when I have a need to shoot things Which is more often than is healthy I’m afraid.
I was so exhausted from work though that I slept about 13 hours when I came home from my shifts. Everything hurt and I had nothing left. Just.. nothing. I barely am starting to feel human again and I already have to go back tomorrow.
Meanwhile, everything else gets abandoned along the way. I have no creative energy left these days. It’s barely feasible to stay on my feet and just get through. I can’t seem to find it in me to write, draw, do anything really… just my games and recuperating when I can. It’s no way to live, but what to do.. what to do…?
The following is a feel-ridden rant/vent/thoughts on this whole Dragon Age 2 news. That being said, feel free to move along if you dgaf. Touchy feely crap basically.
Really hate my freakin muse.. SO MUCH right now.
I have to work all Thanksgiving Holiday So happy F’in Turkey day to me.
So I was TRYING to write my ch 2 of Marric/Fenris fic — Caught in the Rain.
I get like… 1 page in, and then my ART MUSE decides I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE — I NEED A FENRIS Sketch.
So I’m like “Fine, I’ll do a ‘quick’ Fenris sketch to appease you, so you will STFU and I can write.”
Freakin FF and I have this full blown PAINTING WIP of Fenris, and I HAVE TO GO TO WORK so I can’t even finish it!
Seriously, I’m so mad at you muse right now. She knows I’m slow as hell when it comes to painting. So she decides to bombard me when I don’t even have time to finish it.
Gahh! Muses! *throws up hands* Impossible!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone who can and is celebrating, BTW.