I woke up with the burning hunger of 1000 suns. I ate some leftover Chop Chae and I’m thinking “This is the best motherfuckin’ thing I have ever eaten in the history of things!” Then I’m going for the can of toffee peanuts I have sitting near me. I’m halfway down the can in like 5 mins and my brain is yelling at me “STOP, STOP!” and yet my stomach and fingers and mouth are yelling “BUT THE UTERUS DEMANDS MOAR SACRIFICES! WE MUST APPEASE!”

and that was my morning…

I might have ordered some “Blue Box” nailpolish from AdorBeautySupplies on Etsy.com, and I miiigghhttt have painted my nails Tardis blue.

I also am going to work tomorrow, and I give no fucks because I’m going on vacation next week. You know… in the 5 years I’ve been working in this damn career I have never ever taken vacation time. Sure I would take a day off here and there, but no actual vacation. I’m burned out and I need it so if nailpolish is what I need to get me through it then F it.

So, yeah. I’ve been all up in Dr. Who and I used to paint my nails all the time before I worked. I actually love them. Great color, and a perfect match.

Sometimes it’s the little things that make you smile from one day to the next. Thought I would share. 

So the boyfriend and I were playing Resident Evil 6 mercenaries. He decided for some ungodly reason to try spotify instead of pandora for our music. Having no previous playlist created in spotify he chose a random song and just sort of went with it.

About 30 minutes into playing I kind of started tuning it out because it was just horrible screeching cat noises or very nasal and whining tones. Meanwhile we are playing mercs and he is getting more and more upset with the music…

So he tries to take 1 second to close spotify. 1 second in Mercs is pretty much death so I was covering him best I could. However, the music didn’t stop.

We finished the match. Spotify would not stop… It’s possessed.. it’s taking over the computer. He logs out of facebook.. “Why the hell is facebook coming up!? Why won’t it stop. Make it stop. Shut it up.. shut up shut up!”

I’m like “just…mute..” but my words are drowned out by increasing frustration and “WHERE IS IT COMING FROM SHUT UP! OMG IT’S ALL CLOSED STOP MAKE IT STOP!”

So he goes and rips out his computer case from where it sits and effectively rips the power cord out of the back of it. Finally the music stops.

I’m like “MY GOD, you could have just muted it! Or turned off your speakers or… closed the program!”

He yells with pure guttural rage.. “THE MUSIC WAS SO SHITTY!”

At which point I burst out laughing, and taking a moment more… So did he.

“You had so many other options… choices… and you go with the equivalent of ripping the jukebox out of the wall. Nice. I guess it’s just a friendly reminder of what shitty music is really capable of causing.”

We are still laughing.

So, just finished Season 4 of Doctor Who remakes…

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I’m becoming increasingly sorry I haven’t watched Dr. Who earlier. I used to watch some of the old episodes with my mom back in the day. On a whim I decided to give the new ones a try.

I did start with nine, in case that is a thing. I seem to remember seeing something about people skipping nine? I have no idea why anyone would ever do that, but yeah.

Not done yet, still on Ten — almost on Eleven. Going so much better than my Supernatural experiment.

So yeah, first Sherlock and now Dr. Who. Suddenly I find myself a part of too many “fandoms.” Not a bad thing.

Anyway, pointless post, but it’s better than rambling about other things. So there.

Helena Harper - Resident Evil 6.

Helena Harper - RESIDENT EVIL 6

autumnyte:

I have to admit, I envy people who have the capacity to adore and truly enjoy villains and morally ambiguous characters.

Because while I can appreciate them objectively as well-constructed characters, I never really end up loving them, or even ‘loving to hate’ them. 

I always gravitate toward the noble goody two-shoes. I have two favorite flavors of that: well-meaning, humorous, and slightly bumbling; or tortured, deeply principled, and selfless.

I suspect this reveals some sort of a failing on my part, perhaps what a boring person I am. But hey, I like what I like. 

I might attempt to shed some light on this subject since it is one close to my heart. I often am the opposite. I tend to fall more for the villain and the anti-hero of the story. I enjoy the dynamic that the villain brings to the table, the complete and utter freedom of rules and the challenge that the antagonist brings to the protagonist.

The first thing I think is important to note is there is a difference between villain, anti-hero, anti-villain, and hero. These differences, however, are a continually shifting guideline and the borders often between them become confused and fuzzy.

I think the real way to get at the heart of WHY you like heroes over villains is to first come at the problem you have against the villains. Are they black/white to you? Are they void of redeeming qualities? Are they simply acting to a point where you cannot see how or why they would make some of these decisions? Is it their “ends justify the means” mentality/ actions?

The greatest thing about villains is the question of How they became what they are. Were they born into this pure evil of villainy, without soul or moral consequence? Were they a victim of circumstances, society? Was there some event that could have made them go either way?

For me, villains are never truly black/white. It’s hard for me to imagine a character that has absolutely no human frailties, no moral traits, no values. Even the best villains tend to have something that is redeeming. Something that makes you see the resemblance of humanity and morality. Or even simply an astounding cunning, intellect, or ruthlessness which is what keeps them strong and allows them to continue challenging the hero.

This is why I prefer the anti-hero to the villain, but that is also why you see less villains lately and more antagonists who wade between the lines of anti-hero and villain. Often doing the things they do based on a disillusion with society and a need to do things right (for him/her). Their moral ambiguity, violence, greed is often tempered with softer, more noble traits that they struggle with as much as the hero struggles with their “dark side.” The villain simply chooses an alternate path for what they wish to see the world become. They forgo morality and societal laws and norms to remake the environment and circumstance to fit their needs.

A good villain has flaws. They are not simply all bad down to the core. There is always two sides of the coin, and the love of villains and LOVING to hate them comes from that dichotomy. That a hero could just as well be a villain given alternate choices, circumstance, and willingness to do the acts a villain does. A villain becomes a villain, just like a hero becomes a hero in the hero’s journey. They aren’t so different from each other in the end, and the villain is the hero in his/her own mind.

It’s the descent from morality and the constant fall of the villain that challenge the story. How the villain constantly opposes and in some instances destroys the protagonist or takes away something they love. The struggle with those decisions, and the sheer shock factor in what the villain is really capable of doing is a mirror on oneself. Anybody is capable of being a villain, and it is that factor which is why one loves to hate them. It isn’t that they are good people or that they are redeemable. They are fully rooted in villainy, but it’s the fall, and the fact that sometime, someway, they struggle or once struggled with the same dark side and values and questions that we do. That is why they are fascinating. That is why we love to hate them, and even applaud when they are finally conquered or put to rest.

There is nothing wrong with not liking villains, but I think it’s important to realize why they are given that label. What did the author want you to get out of this character? “It is never enough to simply classify a character or a person. One must take into consideration what the creator of this character had in mind, what circumstances affected this person’s actions, what culture or society this person came from, what his or her own beliefs or intentions may be, and finally, how our own prejudices, and associations may influence our perceptions.” - Katherine Blakeney

So I was trying to write something, and I just gave up in frustration. I almost never do this when writing, but it just seems everything that is coming out is just word vomit, and not even close to up to my standards.

I’ll just let it sit on there, side-eyeing me, and play some ME3 to procrastinate  for inspiration. Heh.

None of my old tricks are working, everything coming out is crap, grr.

I’m seriously thinking of taking on prompts/drabble requests. I am bored and have the want to write, but I just am kind of coming up blank with how to start and what to start with.

I write Fenris/Hawke and Garrus best, but I have no problem writing other chars or pairings or whatever from Mass Effect or Dragon Age. This might be too wide open, but would anyone even be willing to read these things if I did them or would anyone send me any requests of drabbles/fics?

I can make no promises in length or quality or guarantee that they will even get done, but I’m willing to try. If there is an interest that is?

EDIT: link to my ask box HERE for easy reference.

Reblogging this from my old RP blog..

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So I may have stayed up until 11am or so after my shift replaying the Citadel DLC. I only got 4 hrs sleep before this shift tonight and yeah… not doing well and 4 hrs to go. Still… worth it! I seriously doubt I could explain this exhaustion to my peers though. Take note, though, the DLC is just… that good. Muahaha.

elenilote:

askmiddlearth:

Nope, Tumblr didn’t eat it. I just get a lot of questions, so there’s an average wait period of week and a half before you’ll see an answer. And things have been especially bad this last week or so, since I’ve been sick and studying for midterms, so unfortunately I’ve been putting off more complicated questions (like yours) so that I can take the time to answer them properly.

(And then there are some questions that are just really easy for me to answer, so they get posted in a couple days. Long story short, I try to make it as fair as possible, but I’m not perfect.)

I’m really sorry for the wait! Stay patient, you’ll see an answer by the end of the week for sure!

As far as I can tell, all elves are described as having varying degrees of ‘fair’ skin, Vanyar had mostly blond/golden hair whereas the Noldor are described as having dark/black hair. The moriquendi (dark elves) does not refer to skin colour, it is simply a moniker to differentiate those elves who never saw the Two Trees from those who went to live on in Valinor.

The only people that are clearly described having dark skin are some Men, namely the haradrim and some Easterlings. Dwarves and hobbits were probably somewhere in between.

I can’t resist some Tolkien lore. Elenilote is essentially correct. There are no dark skinned elves in Tolkien’s lore. The closest you come is Nerdanel who is described as having a “ruddy” complexion. Her and her kin were also very rare and very unique not only for the “ruddy” complexion, but also for the red hair that wasn’t common among the Noldor.

The rest of the elves break down as follows:

Quendi (All Elves) —-> Eldar, Avari, and possible orcs. —-> Noldor, Teleri, Vanyar.

Now the Avari are the “unwilling” — basically the elves who didn’t answer the call of the Valar and did not participate in The Great Journey. That being that they never reached Valinor nor did they ever see the Light of the Trees. Due to this they are referred to as the Dark Elves or Moriquendi. However, that has nothing to do with their skin tone, it simply suggests that they are literally “in the dark” both in knowledge, and in the literal sense of never having seen the light of the Trees. The actual description of the Avari is absent in Tolkien’s lore, but there are hints that they probably mostly resembled the Noldor and Teleri since those were the types of elves who most likely stayed behind. Leaving the Vanyar (the elves with light/gold hair) and the other Noldor/Teleri to go on The Great Journey.

Even Eol - the Dark Elf in Middle Earth who was a descendant of the Avari still had light skin and dark hair. The Dark simply came from the heritage of being without the light of the trees.

His son Maeglin also had dark hair and dark eyes as well, but still had fair skin. Again, more like the Noldor except the dark eyes seem to be a unique trait since this is the only time they are specifically mentioned to describe an elf.

There are simply no cases of dark skinned elves. There are other dark skinned races in Middle Earth — Men, Hobbits, Even Tom Bombadil was described as having a “brown” skin tone. However, when it comes to elves there just simply is no evidence to support darker skin. Perhaps a “ruddy” skin, and of course that was only used for Nerdanel. Still, mostly described as fair, white, and in the case of luthien “silver glimmering.” This is more than likely due to their culture and creation being rooted in the celtic/nordic mythology that Tolkien drew from when he created the elves.

I have been working straight since last Thursday. Now I have to go back again tonight after only 2 nights off. I got home Wednesday morning and pretty much slept straight through until now. I’m just so tired and beyond exhausted. Hence I haven’t been around much.

In other news… I finished catching up on How I Met Your Mother, and I finally… FINALLY… started watching Supernatural.

I tried it once before. It .. uhh.. didn’t end well? lol. Still, I figure I’d give it another shot. I’ve already had like 4 Supernatural dreams from Tumblr alone. Looks like a show I can get into ;).

Wish me luck.

My Amell Warden I am currently working on. I made her look similar to my Gwenya Hawke, but personality wise they are not alike at all. I went with the default name Solona Amell because I like the name and I think it fits her. I named her Mabari Gwenya, LOL. The origin of my Hawke’s name revealed. Just don’t tell her ;).